Today in all four matches in the Australian Open one play got into a large lead and was looking to cruise, and then gave it up for various reasons. This just goes to show you that it isn't over until it's over. Don't think for a second you're done until you're done. Like my AutoCAD file. >< I need to finish it! I'd have to say it almost kept me from going to class. It's the little things that slip me up and then I get embarrassed to the point of just wanting to withdraw so that no one can see the fault. Am I too proud? I'm not sure, but I'm going to attend class anyway. It's a first-time thing so I won't be bothered by it again. You just have to learn from your mistakes. That and time management is always key.
Looking at the time, and looking at my planner this week, you would understand why I feel like I'm running again. Being an architecture student takes time. Being a GREAT architecture student takes time and involvement. This can be characterized by all of the events that I'm attending this week, like yesterday's NOMAS meeting. The Nat'l. Organization for Minority Architecture Students is one of my groups and we had an officer meeting yesterday to plan out the semester and I'm very confident about it. It's our first year and as a new organization we're just hoping to attract members and have things to do and have them want to be a part of something bigger. Yesterday was also a long day in my design class. We learned how to use the CNC router which will be helpful at some point but probably not right now after all. It seems the model we were supposed to do isn't exactly feasible, haha. Well, my design professor is Sinclair Black and is a notable name in the world of New Urbanism, whatever he says I will do. Maybe if I do well enough I could parlay it into a summer internship! Let's hope for the best.
was not my idea of Friday night. Then again, staying up last night wasn't my idea of a Friday morning either. Nevertheless, this is where I currently find myself. Today was a near excellent day, even with the weather which I loved. It's such a nice change from what was the week before: a cold snap the likes of which I've never seen this early in winter. Hopefully the change in temperatures means that spring will arrive early - I really do hope this is the case. I feel that when that happens I may finally bloom (yet it isn't a very masculine action but it doesn't mean it isn't proper) and become more of the person I know I was meant to be. It's a bit odd to think that school starts on Tuesday, but at the same time I couldn't ask for it any sooner. I've learned enough from the real world: love, deceit, overthink, cruelty -it's all a bit too much.
Every time I receive money, it's like a new day. I have finally gotten my financial aid for this upcoming semester and I could not be happier! This means new clothes, furniture, food, just a lot of things that are going to help me prepare for what will be my most important semester to date. Architecture school is difficult. Don't let anyone ever fool you about that. The best way to approach it is like most things - an open mind, a bit of background, and the ability to work and think quickly. I'm happy to say I'm going to buy my new trademark shoes, which will say ArchStar along the heal. I am super pumped about them, they're going to be the piece de resistance and a perfect addition to my wardrobe, along with some cool new tshirts. I think I can post links, so I'll add one here http://www.jlist.com/PRODUCT/NAKA117 . That is a shirt that says ichiban, or #1 in japanese. Personally, I believe that it's one's mindset that affects how one will do in life. If you stay positive, make goals, and get organized (which this post is lacking) then you can achieve greatness greater than anyone has ever seen.
I lost my job yesterday and I wasn't fazed by it. That is never a good sign. I've lost all sense of satisfaction. This happens every now and again but right now it's really bad. Basically it entails me feeling like I'm not getting enough of something but I don't know exactly what it is. My entire though process, my actions, my words are really messed up, which is why this in itself will be short. What's worse is it heightens my oral fixation and I and I can't see to get fully I keep wanting to eat. Someone save me from this feeling.
I have a few remaining days left of winter vacation (though honestly it feels more like fall or a cool summer day outside) so I'm lounging around before I get back in the serious mood of working, as I know adding this job to my academic schedule and aiming for a 4.0 this semester is going to be a challenge. But those are the challenges that I love best. I think about famous tennis stars making comebacks in this instance - recently Justine Henin has returned and the world could not have asked for more. She has the power skill and grace that has been missing from the game since she left, and as most of the rest of the field can't stay consistently at their best she has an excellent chance of winning Grand Slams. I have to believe in myself that same way. I know that I'm capable of doing great things, though for now I'm just going to rest up. I've let myself sleep in for the last two days and have woke up around 11:30am each one! I can't believe I'm sleeping so much, but as long as my body is rested, recovered, and 100% then it'll all be worth it in the end.
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